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2009-06-29T11:29:00.003+08:00

http://unstookie.tumblr.com/
I'm saying goodbye to blogspot for now.
No tagboard, but you can still leave me comments at the end of each post.
BYE!

2009-06-27T12:21:00.002+08:00

"So fairies can fly
Out of the blue you came to me
Hopes and dreams aren’t fiction
Silhouette paintings among the clouds"

Sweet sweet sweet. That's why I love you, you know.
I can't wait for next,next week whenSingapore will be in our hands. Muahah.
Anyways, finally gonna get my laptop back after a MONTH (read that Fujitsu?!).
I didn't know replacing it's dear mother would take so bloody long. Well done.
And taking back my laptop means I have a date with the triple chin expert, Jannah.
In the meantime, I'm watching some Michael Jackson tribute thingy on MTV.
It's sad you know, most of us 80s and 90s babies are still denial. Who else can make
zombies look so good? I don't think there can ever be anyone who's able to replace him.
Shitz, Dirty Diana's on, full attention now, I like the song too much. Goodbye!

2009-06-25T15:41:00.003+08:00

R-tard, but that's ok.
The drama with H1N1 in school is getting too intense. Thank god people like me have
Kristine who is currently pranking Yun-the-no-longer-bird-nest with the same thing
that she pranked Marissa with but failed. But on a serious note, I think we're doing
citizen journalism. If I'm not making sense then good for you coz that went against
my purpose you see. Like how some people keep thinking that their life is so good.

GEDDIT?!

Okay cool.

2009-06-21T12:39:00.003+08:00

And thus, a pretty night it was.
With fireworks and the warmth of the loved (chosen) one.
It takes two to tango.

2009-06-15T22:55:00.002+08:00

I have like so much to type about but like I guess like every other time,
I really can't be bothered anymore coz I just had a complete brain freeze
and so it can be concluded that I don't even want to think about anything
that has any relation to it. Not as if some people are gonna read it coz I
had initially planned to blog about the influenza again which bores most
people I know but then again its an important thing that is currently happening
in the world which affects lives everywhere and that includes you and me, so
I should have blogged about it but I am just too tired and too lazy, so there.

Gee I love long sentences.

2009-06-14T22:22:00.006+08:00

I think I know what I'll be doing in the near future as a side job.

A COLUMNIST.

Because I'm bitchy like that.
I hate 99% of what people believe in.
Loathe what's right and find a way to absorb the wrongs.
Utterly despises people who think they're all that.
My mind cannot be kept still in a brain.
I love it when it speaks, when it's let out and opinionated.

I MEAN LIKE SERIOUSLY?

I went for a job interview thing for Cotton On sometime back.
It wasn't a typical interview where you sit in front of the interviewer
and answer his/her questions. No. This one was a done in a group, the
type where they require you to stand in a circle and interact. Well, they
asked us to share something special about ourselves. Whaddaya know?
One person went, "I'm unique. I'm my own person. I am who I am,"
Blablabla, you know the drill. And almost everyone else repeated what
she said, but, in their own words of course. Woohoo. Then, my turn came.
True to my nature, I contradicted everyone in the nicest way possible.
Should have seen the face of the girl who started it all. Priceless.
Anyways, see my point? I'm cut out for this, whatever it is, cause
I'm damn good at it. Sorry, but I choose not to like everything. That's life.

And yeah, back to the first bit of my post. One more thing to add,
I have a thing against certain cheerleaders (not all!). Good eh? ^_^

2009-06-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

Life lately.

2009-06-01T23:58:00.004+08:00

Turtles are cool.

Ladyhawke is cooler.

My boyfriend coolest lor.

2009-05-30T23:34:00.005+08:00

Yes, like everyone else, I have fallen into the hands of Twitter and have been
neglecting my proper blog lately. Not that I've totally dumped blogging but the
fact that there's a micro alternative to it makes everything else in life much easier.

So, currently am very very tired. My daily schedule has been hectic because of FYP
but funnily enough and yes to much of your surprises, I am actually enjoying the
process of doing the project because FINALLY I see a purpose in life while doing it.
I can't wait for the trip to Kusu and our planned interviews with the turtles. FUN.

And hello, I fell in love with a band just recently and when I mean recently it means
just a few hours ago coz I went to watch them live (my boyfriend watched them twice >.>).
They're called Loovee and are from Japan. Don't play the typical rock/pop shit
you hear on the radio. They have wind instruments and it adds an amazing touch
to their band. Their image is a little quirky and weird but hey, the crowd loved them.
And no, I am not overly praising them. I bet everyone who has seen them would agree.
Go down to Esplanade tomorrow and watch . I'll bet on my toes, you'd love them to bits.

And eh, Nasi Goreng Underground is bleeding nice. Seriously.

2009-05-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

Cute.
Couldn't find the rest though.

2009-05-26T15:19:00.004+08:00

Doing up mine soonish.
And you better not get the same
Air Force Ones as I did.

2009-05-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

Karma's a big bitch.
Karma will bite you back.
Karma will make you take back your words.
So, good luck and have nice days ahead.
You need it.

2009-05-21T15:01:00.006+08:00

Friendship is like peeing on yourself:
everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings.

Never mind the bollocks.

2009-05-12T18:20:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I followed my boyfriend to his family gathering and I have to say,
I actually loved it. Initially very very nervous (since it's the first time
I'm seeing his whole extended family) but after sometime it got okay. There
were so many little kids and it was quite fun trying to play scrabble with them.
Or trying to convince them that there were ghosts in the chalet. And also can't
stop staring at his adorable nephew who had chocolate covered mouth the whole
time and couldn't stop calling out for a "Neow". Fucking cute, that little kid.
But I have to admit, I felt really really sad being there and seeing all of them
being happy. Kinda reminded me of the good old days where I used to spend most of
my childhood with my extended family on a frequent basis. Having chalets and
gatherings at each other's houses. Now that doesn't happen anymore. I can't even hope.

Stupid.

2009-05-08T11:47:00.002+08:00

People are overreacting over the stupid H1N1 epidemic.
By right, it's not even supposed to be an epidemic. Why?
BECAUSE PEOPLE DIE EVERYDAY FROM NORMAL FLU
and hello, figures don't lie. About 300 000 people die yearly because of it
and people all over the world are going berserk because of the influence of
the media and how they tend to overly exaggerate things. And then of course
there are those people who don't even know how the flu goes about spreading,
how you can actually get infected. Pretty sad for the human race to say the least.
We're living in the 21st century where technology is advanced, education is at its
best but people sadly are acting like they're still living in the 1950s (?) where they
thought the "Killer" flu would kill millions but ended up only killing two people. Tsk.

Boys + boredom.

2009-05-04T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hafiz says:
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Back from Malaysia. Got food poisoning as a souvenir.

The weather today is slightly sarcastic.

2009-04-25T19:45:00.005+08:00

Quite a weather we have here don't we?

Don't you sometimes wish that you could turn back time and relive all the best parts
of yesteryear? I passed by my old primary school the other day and it reminded me
of the time when we had co-ed games between the classes. I remember having a
screaming fit at my classmate for scoring an own goal. Then as I got older that screaming fit
turned into a bitch fit. Playing floorball in secondary school was a pain in the ass.
Most girls refused to play because the sun was shining too bright and they feel like
fainting thus having them holding on to floorball sticks in the shade which is not part
of the playing area. Well, I too had my stick except it wasn't in my hands for long
coz it decided that it needed to fly in the direction of the lazy pigasses of girls. Pfft.

Then there are somethings you completely can't remember at all. Like how my parents
told me that I got my hand stuck in the doors of an elevator once but I can't even recall any
single bit of the incident. Odd isn't it? I guess that's how somethings just work out in our
little brain etched in our skull which are bones which are in our body which makes up our
physical representations. Oh god, the heat is eating me up, thus this weird weird post.

And oh, I don't know how X is gonna be like anymore.
Heath, what have you done to us?!

Heartbeat drumming double time.

2009-04-23T16:09:00.007+08:00

Hey! You're playing with my delirium.
And the longer i wait the harder I'm gonna fall
Stop! Playing with my delirium
Coz I'm outta my head and outta my self control

I had my first lesson with the kids yesterday and all I can say is that
they're fucking adorable. They were all eager beavers wanting to volunteer
for every small little thing. There were bumps though. Two girls got into an
argument and both refused to go home. Thank god for my bf's quick thinking,
used the Principal threat and they quickly scuttered home. Oh well, kids. Haha.
Wasn't too sure at first but I think I'm starting to love my job.

Frank the Rabbit.

2009-04-21T11:57:00.002+08:00

This low sinking feeling is killing me.

I wish I was a Darko so that I won't get so pissed that the
vending machine ate up $1.50 of my life. And stuff.

I'm gonna go see that crazy woman's stuff next week!

2009-04-20T14:49:00.002+08:00

Our very first picture. Hehh.

We wanted to step off our island and add the color of the third world.
We got gold cigarette paper and stuck it around our teeth.
We really did look like pirates and dressed to look the part.

-Vivienne Westwood

This is something.

2009-04-19T16:22:00.005+08:00

It's been awhile.

All the angst against idiots aside, these past week has been fucking amazing.
We had the CCC camp and FOP for the year 1s and heads up to all the SLs,
we did good. Heads up to all the year 1s, we love you. Everyone did great!

It's not always about material wealth and looks.

2009-04-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

The two made an unusually odd couple. One was tall, as tall as can be,
and one was short, as short as can be. So imagine the sight they created.
But in their heads and hearts, they couldn’t care less about their height
difference or their weight or their size. They cared about love.

What is love one would ask?
Love is when the two link their hands together and sang “Yellow Submarine”
out loud. Love is when they both try their hardest to not fall asleep at
one’s movie recommendation. Love is when they both poke fun at the same
people at once. Love is the simplest things they do together, do for each
other. Love is when everything counts, when the smallest of gestures makes
everything else look so tiny. That is why I am proud to be half of the quirky-ness.

Start rant. not so end.

2009-04-07T01:12:00.003+08:00

My dad was being a real ninny.
Thank god for my boyfriend and friends.
Even though I was a huge bitch to them despite the fact that
they tried to make me feel better. But heck, that's real loving
from the best people ever. And you know what? I'm fucking thankful
that I have these people in my life.

I don't need someone who's not true to his/herself.
I don't need someone who talks bad about me or any of my other friends.
I don't need someone who is fictitious, who forgets about the very people
who've been through his/her prettiest and ugliest moments. Except now,
the ugly part is getting too much, it's irritating to the point where people
who've been nice all these while are realizing that the person should not
be given the opportunity to step on their heads and take advantage of it.

But you know what? Sometimes, things happen for the best. I'm having the
time of my life right now and I guess, as much as I hate it, the possible life
ruiner should be thanked for making all of us happier than ever. So I wish
you luck in everything. Best wishes to your future unplanned endeavors.

Baby, you're one of the crazies.

2009-04-02T18:39:00.003+08:00

"Is that Lady Gaga?"

"Yeah."

"She looks crazy!"

"She is."

"Why do all the people you like are crazy?"

"Dunno."

"Eh but the zipper on her eye's cool!"

Can't read my poker face?

2009-03-31T23:47:00.004+08:00

Right.

Today let's talk about humans and the way they act.
In all naturalness, humans tend to succumb to things and as we all know,
humans as much we want to believe that some are intelligent, it's safe to
say that each and everyone of us have fallen into a trap called stupidity.
You can have all the smart people listed down if you want to and say that
hey, these people are smart, these people invented things, these people
are making lots of money, these people are successful. However rich,
smart, fat, thin, smart these people are, at the end of the day, they're
still humans. Humans are humans, they make mistakes, and then comes the
stupidity. It's alright if the level of stupidity is subtle like it is for most of us
but it's not okay if the level of stupidity exceeds that of a normal functional
human being. Especially if it's exaggerated to the point, well, let's just say
that makes the individual looks undoubtedly gullible and vulnerable to the
extend of others looking down on him/her and start to think, "Why are you
here in the first place?!" One question someone would be asking me is that
how in the hell would I know all this? Well, simple. In my nineteen years of
being a human being, I've met quite a couple of these humans. Sad but
downright true. This is the real world everyone. Pretty pathetic if you ask me.

Tembikai Ikea uh.

Smurfs are asexual. They don't even have reproductive organs under those little, white pants.

2009-03-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

Fuckass tiring day that was.
But we had alot of fun, especially with Mona Lisa and the many different
"friends" we made in KFC. And no worries, maybe like what your mom
said Daya, it's not meant to be. Haha, sounds like a line from a Malay drama.

So quick updates:
Watching Donnie Darko, sucky internet, hoping people
would check their emails, wanting people to snap
back to reality & missing the boyfriend very much.
And that's about it. Have a good weekend everyone!

I for you.

2009-03-21T00:18:00.005+08:00

心からキミを愛してる
キミに降る痛みを拭ってあげたいすべて

♥♥♥

Me, chibi form.

2009-03-20T01:46:00.003+08:00

Inspired by this.

Credits go to Amanda!

DSIT.

2009-03-17T02:43:00.005+08:00

I so suck at the blogging thing now because I haven't been updating as frequently
as I used to. Not because I'm retardedly busy with my life, it's just that I honestly
have nothing blog-worthy to actually type on and work with. But of course, if you
think I'm trying to imply that my life is boring, it's not. It's pretty much alright in
my books, nothing too chaotic, nothing too mundane. Ehhh, I think I have way too
much holed up anger in me but who doesn't right? Or maaaaaaaybe it's just PMS.

Anyways, these coming few weeks are gonna be much much more interesting.
CCC camp and Freshman Orientation Programme (omg, so pro school >.>)
and then of course other stuff. Which will be well fun. Just so you know.
Urgh, frustrating, see where this is going?

Nothing to blog about --> Typing senselessly --> Fuels Anger
Get over it. I'm not a loser.
Or maybe I'm immortal. BECAUSE I HAVE NO LIFE APPARENTLY.
According to my boyfriend and Hyder: No life = Immortal.

ANGST OMG.
There's something superbly wrong with me.

AND

I am currently not talking to my brother because he broke a bowl and I was made to
clean it up and I made a huge fuss and now he's pissed with me ? Huh?

To end things off, here are some important things,

I love my boyfriend (who I think fell asleep on his laptop while playing a game).

I think I kinda like Lady Gaga (push away the gimmick and hype and you can see that she can actually sing. Read: Live at the Cherrytree House).

You should really, really, really check out the lyrics for Lily Allen's Fuck you. Fucking ace of a song. Here click on this if you're really stupid and don't understand google.

Okay that's it for now. You can go rot now, bye.

"Fuck You (Very Much)"

2009-03-11T00:19:00.004+08:00

Did I mention the other day that I had to get my laptop's hard disk replaced?
Whatevs with that but the thing that's really getting to me is the fact that I lost
everything on my laptop. My many different albums of pictures with important
people, the whole load of albums of music I've downloaded (esp in school harrr)
and yes, the games that eventually I believe took the very life of the laptop.

Depressing crap aside, I'm scheduled to get the stitches out of my mouth later in the
morning. So, unlike the comic that I've posted in one of my past posts, nothing of the
sort will happen. I barely had to deal with much pain to begin with. Yes, there was pain
here and there but they weren't exactly the fuckmylifeiregrethavingthissurgery kind of pain,
everything was bearable. Heck, I was able to eat normally after the third day, okay not
really. I was eating with one side of my mouth but its not THAT bad. Proud, I am. Hahaha.

I'm going to go busy myself with stuff from Parlophone now. That's right, google it.
No, not your type, so don't even bother. Go busy with yourself with bad choices, js.
And I think everyone should try meeting Akinator, freaky person he is, isn't he Daya?

Anyways, why the hell does " No Fair" sound like some country dance ho-down?

Vivienne.

2009-03-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE HER.

no wisdom but that doesn't mean I can't comprehend things.

2009-03-06T11:34:00.005+08:00

Well, my gum is hurting again but I took two different types of painkillers
so I guess the pain will subside soon. Yeah, I had a wisdom teeth surgery
the other day. Teeth coz I took out two, both from the left side. The upper one
was being really nice and came out in less than 10 seconds but the bottom one
was a fucking bitch and it needed like say, half an hour of drilling and using the of
pliers thingy? Didn't hurt at all though, let me tell you that. The anesthesia worked pretty
well, till funnily enough, I started hallucinating and all I could see during the surgery was
Oompa Loompas and Munchkins from the Wizard of Oz instead of the dentist.

The nurse who was helping out was such a tool though. She kept taking the
wrong things and finally got yelled at by the dentist. She got replaced by this other
nurse who subsequently went to tell the dentist that the other girl had a headache.
At this point the dentist went on a total bitch mode and said "I'm not a doctor, I'm a dentist"
I wanted to LOL when I heard that but no way in hell I could laugh, not with a drill
in my mouth but omg, the stupid pain in my gums is back today suddenly. Maybe because
I ate the medicine a little bit later than I'm supposed to but who the hell is going to be awake
at like 4 am just to eat and then take meds right? But whatever, go get your wisdom teeth
extracted, it's an eye opening experience. No I kid, unless of course, if you want to swell like
a puffer fish but I really do swear that it isn't as bad as it looks like. Not that painful after all.

I would post pictures of my teeth but they're a bloodied mess anyways and all you can
see is blood, so, I'll save you the agony and go ahead and google for other people's teeth.

We're having a party.

2009-03-05T15:46:00.003+08:00

But you're not invited.

ouch factor.

2009-03-01T14:46:00.007+08:00

Real actors cry when they're really into character.

SURGERY NEXT WEEK.

No acting thennn -_____-

What lovely weather we have.

2009-02-25T16:37:00.010+08:00

The other day, while me and Daya were sitting in KFC,
we realized that the mashed potato actually sinks after some time
if we don't eat it. With that being said, we realized a ton of other things
at the same time. Which was funny coz well, it's funny, I think.
Yes, I usually don't bother making sense. But that's okay.

In that same day, with the help of Daya and Raden, I managed
to finish up the final parts of my boyfriend's birthday present with
jokes accompanying us, nonetheless. A million thanks to the two people
who never cease to get tired of making fun of people and things alike.

Getting on to the boyfriend's birthday itself. It was fun but wasn't
spectacular because yes, I admit, I was being annoying and very much a
handful for a twenty year old to handle. But I did manage to get him
twenty different things, each having their own meaning/history to him.
We walked under the rain a plentiful times, it was sweet. I love him ♥.

Also, on the same day itself, Heregoesnothing performed on Live N Loaded.
Many apologies to Farhan for not being able to attend but do note that we're
(as in me, Hafiz and Daya) all proud of you. It's about time you got your break^^.

And there you have it.
Sorry if my life isn't as interesting as yours.

Of walks and mosquitoes.

2009-02-21T14:41:00.003+08:00

Happy Saturday people!
What do I do on a Saturday? Hmm, lets see.
I stay at home and get online and talk on the phone
and laze around and watch TV and eat and eat and eat.
And to think that I just lost 4 kg over the span of 2 months.
Anyways, my legs are itching like a bitch coz I got bitten by
mosquitoes yesterday. But somehow, getting bitten by them
doesn't even seem to matter right now coz I'm at a point where
I don't really care about menial things like mosquitoes and such.
There's actually a term for it. People like us call it the LeShang.

everybody says it's just like rock'n roll.

2009-02-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

My boyfriend and I are really really good people.
But of course, like everyone else, we like to have some fun.

"We should really stop talking about other people like this."

"Yeah, we should start accepting people for who they are."

"Okay from now onwards, we won't make fun of people anymore."

"Yeah okay, from now onwards we should start talking about rainbows and ponies
and flying unicorns."

"Ah I feel joy in my heart"

"I know! Don't you feel all fluffy inside?"

"Mhmmm!"

Five minutes later...

"I still think that ___________ is ugly."

"And what were talking about just now?"

"Oh yeaaaah. Sorry."

Head-egg.

2009-02-13T23:12:00.007+08:00

And so, I am using the school's laptop.
Jobless, penniless, laptopless, lifeless.
Not so the last one but still. See where this is going?
I absolutely detest holidays, I'd rather be in school,
okay superficially because of entertainment and not the studying.
But oh well, absolutely beats holidays and skulking around doesn't it?

Anyways, I just got off the phone with Daya, I'm praying fucking hard
that she gets into RP, so that my new school year will be much more cheerier
(it's fun as it is, but imagine if Daya gets in!). Speaking of school, one more year
to go and then I'm done (if there's no bumps along the way.. heh)! And then
I'm planning to get my degree and then omfg, proper working world. I am
definitely aging. I have no clue why I keep going on and on about being old
and growing old and maturing. And yes, very soon, hopefully, I am entitled to
whatever money the government plans to gonna give out then. HOPEFULLY.

Btw, you thought that was cool?
Ours were way cooler.
And yes, I have new shoessss. Yay!

Open up my eyes.

2009-02-11T10:30:00.003+08:00

Well hello there.
Quick update, my laptop died on me, it's in the hospital now,
in hope for revival. Life has been rather fair to me

I think I'm in another new chapter in my life where I am beginning
to realise about how much I've grown. I'm older, wiser, and also braver.
I'm 19 now. So old. Old enough to think ahead and plan. There's no harm.

Okay, I am more or less bullshitting.
Gah, I need my laptop back.

Live n Loaded.

2009-02-05T00:22:00.004+08:00

It was fun. Try to spot faces if you can.
But fuck off. You can't see me coz I'm short.

Picture creds to Jonathan Kwa.

Arkham Asylum.

2009-02-02T00:18:00.003+08:00

Can't wait!
The graphics are fanbloodytastic.
I want. Please.

Did you know........

2009-01-31T00:09:00.005+08:00

that in actual fact, you look like a really ugly frog?
Well, now you know.

Newsflash!!!
I have a serious case of writer's block.

Anyways, I think Facebook is a shithole when it comes to privacy.
I just hate the fact that I have family members lurking on my every move on there.
It just bothers me. You know why? They will start picking on the things
that are on your profile which are either:

Ethically wrong. ( omg yay for Ethics and IP in Media man)
Legally wrong.
Shameful to the family name.
All of the above.

Okay, to be fair I haven't had family related issues being brought out
because of Facebook. I have my aunts, cousins and family friends on there
and so far no hoohaas. But just the thought of them eyeing your every move
is just so erratically bothering. One day something can be okay, the next, not.
But oh well, Pet Society is keeping me still glued to that social networking site.
And yeah, at least its 874587486854678349 times way better than Friendster.
But never as good as myspace. Oh god, I'm back to loving that site once again.

Done for now.
I love my boyfriend. I love my friends.
Kay bye.

Sucked more blood than a backstreet dentist.

2009-01-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

Blaaaahhh.
Down with fever again.
See? My Igetfevereverytwoweeks theory works.
Extremely bored. Going back to rotting now, bye.

This is scary.

2009-01-26T23:13:00.004+08:00

So the other day Jannah went missing in school
and the others being smartasses, decided to record
themselves finding her. Luckily I was somewhere else,
it was creepy as fuck, especially the last part.

Me > you.

2009-01-24T02:18:00.005+08:00

Fuck you, seriously.
Look at things in a bigger picture. No matter how much you try, you fail.
I get so pissed every single day just thinking about the way you are.
And hell, everyone that knows you agrees as well. You're a conceited,
big headed, self absorbed idiot/bitch/slut/whore. Fuck you.
I guess you can be proud of yourself though, you put the trash in trashy.
Accomplishment much? But oh, nowhere ever near mine. At least my life
isn't one that consists of only me, me, me, me, me, me and maybe perhaps me.
I'm being annoying, so be it. You are way off the radar though when it comes to
annoying people. Oh come on, why can't you just satisfy me for once and actually
admit that you are something that you can never see yourself to be? Look into the
mirror sugar, it's glaring back. Be honored that this post is actually dedicated to you.

I am so happy with my life. Up yours and envy it.

Nineteen.

2009-01-21T23:57:00.002+08:00

Thank you Jannah, Azeela, Farhan, Myra, Ikhlas, Sheila, Kristine,
Lester, Haiqal, Jelina, Lynn, Wan, Yun, Marissa, Melody, Zaty and Godfrey.
The scariest birthday prank/surprise ever but definitely one of the best.

Thank you to Changeling for being so awesome and making my birthday
much more meaningful. I swear I'm gonna watch it again.

Thank you baby for giving me the best birthday present ever,
an awesome day out. Let us turn into red lobsters together, ily.

And once again, thanks for all the birthday wishes.
Stop saying I'm not old. I'm 19 already, depressingly true, lol.

Ohh, before I forget, some people should stop being so
obsessed with themselves. At the end of it all, we all still
have better lives than you. Very much sad, I sympathize.

We sing and harmonize and dance and laugh.

2009-01-18T12:44:00.010+08:00

We got ourselves cameras and went a little picture crazy
these past few days. There are a few hundred or so more
of pictures, I blame Ikhlas, he's been snapping all the way.
Not a bad thing though, my Burmese friend. And yeah, baby
discovered a new hobby along the way as well, he got nice shots
the whole day. We braved through the scorching sun, mind you.
Pictures capture memories. I want everything that I have
right now to last. Because my life is great, awesome if
it gets better. Two more days, here I come N-I-N-E-T-E-E-N.

We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

2009-01-16T00:19:00.003+08:00

We'll get through this one.
And others that are gonna be thrown at us.
I'm your pillar, you're my pillar.
I love you Muhammad Hafiz, I really do.

Cinnamon roll.

2009-01-14T14:26:00.002+08:00

Night out with three other clowns.
Heart to heart talks. Laughing at people.
Laughing at ourselves. I love you three.

Dream, Reality, Memories, and Yourself.

2009-01-11T15:28:00.004+08:00

I realised that I haven't typed a long entry in here in a long ass time.
My brain juices have dried up and I'm getting more and more of a pig, so meh.

Well yeah, started school again which doesn't make sense coz I'm gonna announce
that school is out in another 1-2 weeks time. Then again, it is afterall, RP.
Time goes by super fast, funny that I'm almost ending my second year here and
going to venture into the third and then I'm done. There's my friends too. Farrr
and Daya are ending their school life already and Jon has already enlisted in NS.
This is scary. I've never realised how close the future is going to be. It's always,
"Let's not bother about that now. Let's just bother about today". Thing with that is that
the "today" is the "future". Everything is being thrown at really really fast and in this
day and age where maturity counts, not alot of things are being handled properly as it is.

Life is melodramatic and there's the highs and the lows which are unavoidable to all but
there are of course ways to get around them. But there are times though where we falter,
we crumble under the pressure, letting whatever problem get the best of us, making us weak.
This is why I am learning. Learning to make sure that I get a good grip of my life, so
much so, it won't be my own downfall. Here's the important note to everyone: Your life is in
your own hands. That being said, I urge you all to think. And start thinking now.
The future is here and we have to take charge of it, else, it will never work out the way we
want it to be. Doesn't matter how, any way would do. Expect the worst, expect the best.

I'm saying all this not because I know that I have to act now. I'm turning 19 in a matter of
days and I feel so old. My life just flew by just like that and I want to have something
that I can be proud of for the rest of my life. Life is just alright right now. I'm pretty
content with it, just wish I have time for everyone. I need to get back and get in touch
with the people who've made a good mark in my life so far, as cliche as it sounds.

Done for now. Have a good Sunday people!

Back to school (BusyBusyBusy).

2009-01-08T22:31:00.012+08:00

Can't wait for Saturday!

About me.

2009-01-03T03:58:00.004+08:00

I found something interesting!
Done by my ex-classmates, Christmas 07.

[Click for bigger view]

Happy new year!

2009-01-01T21:15:00.013+08:00

Okay so Ah lian and Mat went out.
We walked and walked and walked. And then we had lunch.
And in between we sat down and made fun of our best friends.
And then we walked some more and got free drinks from Starbucks.
And then we walked again and got lost in the CBD area.
And we played the trust game and duh, he didn't let me fall (:
And then we sat down again and talked and he burnt me a cute paper heart.
And then we went home and some lady screamed at us. But awesome day it is!

♥♥♥

Try it.

2008-12-29T02:16:00.004+08:00

So a couple of us were bored (read: Farhan, Ikhlas and Me).

[ Click for bigger view ]

http://www.titane.ca/igod/main.html

Cheatplanet.com is annoying.

2008-12-27T01:32:00.007+08:00

You know what I hate?

Ridiculously, insanely rich people who do nothing except party day in, day out,
while normal people like us have to slog our asses off to get what, 1/12 of what
they get daily for allowances? Fuck, go fucking live in some fucking third fucking
world country and go and fucking make mud houses for people or like use that
goddamned money of yours to buy them food instead of like, wasting your money
on some stupid fucking bag which costs a bomb but is made out of the exact same
material they use for recycling bags that we can get anywhere for a fucking dollar.
Shit you, seriously. How about being humble for once and start buying stuff that you
can find at the local dollar fucking shop. Or maybe, start like repenting or something.
Or like maybe, you know, go live in a cave so that you won't have to like come across
with people like me who will spite you for life no matter how much I may seem nice to
you coz in actual fact I don't think you deserve being nice to but oh well, I have dignity.

This post might be gone tomorrow, if I feel like it.

Pro tip : They keyword here is MIGHT.

And fuck, I miss my H. I have a valid enough reason, okay, so shut up.
I don't have a chance to see him on a frequent basis. I'm not a blessed person.
I am quarantined. Inside this house. Where everyone is getting on my nerves.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!
EVERYONE ELSE ( except for a few) IS ANNOYING AS WELL.

Yeah, majorly moodswinging. Bye.

I love aussies.

2008-12-25T00:12:00.004+08:00

Fucking ace.
One day they will be big and you will shut up.
Merry Christmas, kay bye.

Coulrophobia.

2008-12-23T00:11:00.004+08:00

Whats your greatest fear? Today I'm gonna be superficial and talk about things more
on the surface rather in depth. Well, as some of you may know, I have this huge thing
against clowns. Any of you watched Pennywise? That stupid horror film where the
clown has super sharp teeth and goes around stalking people. Yeah, that one. That
fucking movie scarred me for life. I can't look at clowns at all. Recently I had this one
dream about a clown stalking me managed to stab me twice with a knife, I didn't die
though but he wasn't stopped either. I woke up crying because the last image I saw
was that of the fucker chasing me around with a knife for the third time. Good god.
Oh yeah, and also, I remember being chased after a clown in mall during Christmas
time as a kid. It wasn't only the clown, there was this fat Santa too. Like, literally
chasing. Who the hell does that to little kids who refuse to get presents and balloons
from you. Pro tip, once a kid cries, get the fuck off or you'll haunt the kid for life.

Hafiz is probably going to roll his eyes at this. He was a clown once. Hah.

I for you, you for me. I love thee.

2008-12-19T17:48:00.007+08:00

We're like, hat addicts. LOL.

I know this going to be like the 65434574385th post I've made about my parents,
but I have to say, I can't help it. I really do love them, no matter how much I complain,
whine and yell about how unfair they can be towards me. At the end of the day, they're
the reason I'm here, the very people who loved me from the start. Wah, okay. Lets cry.

Mom and her big hair.
My parents' friend was here over at house just a little while ago and mom being mom,
did the typical lets-look-at-old-photos-and-laugh-at-how-funny-everyone-was-back-then.
I know my mom doesn't show it, but from the way she was describing to her friend about
my childhood and how I was like, I can tell that she loves me, she's proud of me, happy
of who I am now, just that well yeah, she doesn't show it, not in an obvious manner, if any.

Dad and his denim.
As for my dad, well, he doesn't show it that much either. But I can tell that he loves me too.
Especially when we start talking about music and then we'll both get animated and go on and
on about the one main thing we can agree on, which is great, really. I think in a way, his CD collection and constant singing-out-loud sessions have been great influences to me. Really!

You won't read this but heck.......

I love you guys!

Pets Society and Us.

2008-12-14T19:38:00.004+08:00

OH HAI. It's Spungen and Furry Dude!

I'll sport a smile, take in some color
Under the stars, I'll be your lover
With no distractions I'm gonna treat you right

Well it seems like things are only getting better
Well it seems like we can never catch a break

Trust me just this once — you are the opposite of ordinary.

2008-12-13T03:34:00.010+08:00

If cliche wasn't cliche, what would it be? If typical wasn't typical, what would it be?
Sadly we live in a profoundly odd era where these things would matter and everyone
would just conform so as to not be the black sheep of the herd. Of course there are one
or two who always enjoy taking the risks, not always ending up in a positive note but
the experiences compare to what other individuals have? Seemingly contrasting.

We're all humans, we all have blood running through us. That's a whole already and yet
in order to further "differentiate" yourself, you follow when on the hindsight you're just
the same. Carbon copies of every single being out there, unnoticeable to you maybe but
not to the bare naked and not so bare naked eyes of the society. Yes, society that judges.

Perspectives differ from person to person and we all know that everyone is not the same.
Yet, despite having the knowledge of that already, some of us just don't get it. We let things
get to us, it's like you're asking a gunman to kill you straight away after knowing that he's
threatening your life. Here's the thing. The keyword there is threatening. You can't just give
up to the man and go "Hey, he has a gun. So let him kill me,". No, fight back or run or just
do whatever is at your will and reach. You have the power to control the situation, quit not.

PS:
Twilight was awesome. Yay for sneaks!
Happy Birthday Matsumoto Hideto.

( ﾟ∀ﾟ)ｱﾊﾊ八八ﾉヽﾉヽﾉヽﾉ＼ / ＼/ ＼

2008-12-10T16:46:00.004+08:00

These were like drawn what, two years ago?

Hi. I love X. Then sometimes I feel like I don't but then when I think about it,
yes I love X. Art of Life man! Omg, wtf am I rambling about. Yes no I don't know.
HUH? You see. See art. LOL, I think my brain just puked out random words. Omg.

I miss a whole shit load of people. Kevin, where's Kevin? Dai, Brett, Aoi and Astrid, we don't
talk much anymore, no shit. And then most importantly KODOKS. OMG. I hate myself >.>

OH YES, there's the two fuckers I miss them but hell, WHO CARES MAN SINCE YOU
CAN BOTH GO DIE OR SOMETHING. FUCKSZXSXZXZZ. I think I'm funny. Hahaha.

Okay, time for me to shut up coz I think I'll trigger a landslide. Speaking of which, reminds
me of a really funny ass country close to us. Omg, I am not making sense. HAAAAAAA.

Anyways, anyone remember the infamous 707 train? Just saying, I miss Nana.

Tower.

2008-12-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

It's nice.
Nice to have someone bring you to your favourite spot
and watch the sunset and just sit there and talk.
And then when it grows quiet, he just stares at you, intently.
Because you're not gonna see each other for a few, and he wants
to remember your face, even though you're always self conscious
and think that you look retarded, it doesn't really matter.

I wear the biggest smile :D

Wrestlemania/ Capoeira.

2008-12-03T23:40:00.004+08:00

Britney's Circus, as redefined by me:
"There’s only two types of people in the world
The ones that name-drop, and the ones that observe."

I pity you, kid.
To think you have to stoop that low.
But don't worry, we'll give you hell.

Where's the secret heart giver? Hmm.

Under red lights.

2008-12-01T22:39:00.008+08:00

Last picture, taken for class today. I like it.
Oh btw, nice dress there, Lester.

Old songs rock.

2008-11-29T17:38:00.006+08:00

Tonight, we're the last ones, but the symphony was contrived.
So we fawn in time to negate this collapse of values until I fall tonight.
But I am the same breed,
No this is the same one that would cast down its cries before the latent gown.
But this dying youth has been birthed, sold and whored to death
with blood lingering on the hands of the crown.

And this beautiful waltz is contortion.
With your breath upon my neck, the contrails dissolve our correlated steps.
Oh, my beautiful one, this love we can never know.

I Throw Shoes.

2008-11-28T01:00:00.006+08:00

• EFFESSHEESH. says:
yah lah, u and ure kasut
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
everytime wanna lempar
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
stick it to ure feet
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
lempar something else
おれさま says:
lempar kau ah
おれさま says:
HAHAHAHAHA
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
99%
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
HAHAH!
おれさま says:
no farhan
おれさま says:
doesnt work
おれさま says:
phail
ilovemyangelandrea! 31st! says:
hahahah
• EFFESSHEESH. says:
shuddup lor
ilovemyangelandrea! 31st! says:
i hope i can say that to nabilah
ilovemyangelandrea! 31st! says:
but she has the whole world behind her
ilovemyangelandrea! 31st! says:
so i ahve no say

LOL.
You will never understand the language of the clan.

Bogeyman.

2008-11-26T03:14:00.005+08:00

Bogeyman. Hoho.

You know it's funny how everything has its own twists and turns.
And then you have the unexpected, coming at you, while you're unprepared.
Then you stop and think about it and understand it and slowly accept it.
There are certain things to look at. There are certain things to be careful of.
Become the good, the bad? Who knows? But personally, I don't mind at this at all.

Farhan Shah Lor.

2008-11-23T17:55:00.008+08:00

Effess, you rock.
Way better than those cheena
fucks who can't sing anyways.

I'm in a surprisingly joyful mood.
WOOOOOOOOOO!

2008-11-20T01:20:00.007+08:00

I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.

Now what?
NOW FUCKING WHAT?

2008-11-18T00:03:00.009+08:00

DON'T FUCKING READ.
Noone does anyways.
I just had one of those just now. A few moments after crying over seeing the
sweetest thing ever, I had this sudden burst of mind wondering. I was walking
home slowly, feet in utter pain (fuck Ferragamos man, really), I distracted myself.
I pretended that I had my music player with me and all I could hear was the
different tracks from Uroboros. Then I shut down everything else around me in
its entirety and started thinking. I reflected in the things I did, how useless, how
worthwhile they were. I reflected on my childhood, I was happy then, far less worries
than I have now. I used to be genuinely happy in the past. Now, I don't even know
myself anymore really. There's so many words used to judge me but thinking about it,
am I really who I am? What if everything I've done to mold myself all this while are
subconscious and you know, not what I'd typically do? Maybe I'm doing things because
I'm so used to conforming and I don't notice it. But then again maybe not. Whatever it
is, I should say that I'm at least proud of the person I've become. Like repeated so
many times, I'm not perfect, never will and I like it that way. I say and do things the
things I really want to. But there are also times, where I sacrifice myself just so that
some things would be different. I've always thought that's the right thing to do, but
now, now that I can see certain things much more clearly, I really don't understand
why I did them. Who am I kidding? Someone told me to sit back and relax but really,
I can't. I'm never the type to keep still. Everyone has their own life, they should have
the freedom to control it. If you let other people control you, you might as well die.
Harsh, but that's the truth. Why? Then ask yourself about your existence. It's not
answerable and yet we keep living. I'll try, to mend things for the better of myself.
But, there's only so much a person can do. I regret certain things now. Think please.

I shall go back to reading now.

2008-11-16T01:09:00.009+08:00

You know sometimes, staying at home during the weekends can be better
than you think. I mean yeah, for most people, the weekends equals to
woohooletsgopartyandgethyphy, not me though. I'm such a homebody on weekends,
I actually think it's kinda fun? Weirdly enough, complain as I like, staying at home
during the weekends is not that bad (especially since I'm always broke by the end of
the week). Anyways, I'm more of a weekday person, I'm barely back home early
on a weekday. So yeah, just now as I was watching the United game (5-0 woohoo!),
my dad decided to be at his lamest, laughing at his own jokes while I "laughed" along.
At one point of the game, some player got hit on his privates by the ball and my dad
started laughing to himself, to which I went " What?" and here's his explanation:

Dad: What's the term used when a player's balls got hit by the ball?
Me: What?
Dad: Balls' ball!!!
Me: Why?
Dad: Because if it's the hand then it's hand ball, so, balls would be balls' ball.

Get my drift?

Okay here's another one.
You know those sideboards at the edge of the pitch where there's adverts on them?
Man United were advertising their different websites for different countries, so they
had them in the native language of the country's website. At that time, it was Japan.

Dad: Is that in Japanese?
Me: Yeah, that's Japanese.
Dad: Oh Japanese ey.
Me: Yeah.
Dad: Then why is it in Korean?
Me: IT'S JAPANESE.
Dad: Don't yell at me. I was just wondering.

and then he laughs to himself again.

Yeah, I love him(:

2008-11-15T02:27:00.002+08:00

Vinushka is god.
I have high hopes for Uroboros now.
Get me the CD. Kaythanks.

2008-11-12T14:25:00.007+08:00

I care about my future. Do you?

You know I don't know what is there over here to be proud of.Like many others,
I will work towards my goal in leaving this place. There's so much I'd like to say
here, to criticize mostly but I won't because of obvious circumstances. You'd
probably see me being scrutinized on a major scale, one that underlines the whole
message of this place, one that will justify it. I don't even know why I even think
so much about the hard concrete truth when you know, I look around and I see
other people of my age only going around bothering about their own minuscule life,
about their family, their friends, their partners. Here I am wondering whether or
not is it really fair for me not being able to have my say on issues which I think really
matters to each and every individual living here. The power of thinking too much really,
I suppose, especially at this age. But I can't help it can I? I mean, if you don't think
about your place here, then what? Futureless? I don't want that. I want to have a
proper comfortable life, but probably not here. I don't know man. This is unfair.

Screw my life, I want my old fringe back! T__T

2008-11-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

Pro tip:

Always double check to see if you've really hung up on the phone,

ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'VE MADE THE CALL.

Lester, you could have hung up first,
instead of telling me what song I was listening to, lol.
20 mins gone. Urghhhh, fucking phone.

2008-11-09T20:18:00.004+08:00

Kozi and Mako?

FUCKING BRILLIANT!

2008-11-07T23:35:00.004+08:00

So I was stuck at this place just now with Lester and oh god, I wished I had ten
arms on me so that I can punch every single one of the tyrants with no future.
What purpose do they have in this society anyways? Do they even know what the
term society means? Piss off, please. Especially if I've been telling you in your face
that your high level of English is making me go deaf or your level of competence
is one that is comparable to of a 7 year old. But then of course, there's the "higher
class" ones, some of them I know oh-too-well but of course, in absolute perfect denial
which is all too funny when you think about how much their life would be way useful
if they have not turned out this way.Thinking of what I'm thinking? What a waste. Tsk.

Way too much school for me, I might as well live there.

2008-11-04T01:21:00.003+08:00

Another faction of
And no detection of
Another tax out of your life

Don't take me for no sunbeam
Don't take me for no sunbeam
No sunbeam no sunbeam

2008-11-01T02:34:00.008+08:00

Wooh, so glad that it's Saturday already! The week on the whole so far has been
great, with that disgusting shit of a PP done and a much needed break from
fucking PBL. Besides those, I had some things cleared here and there, new
things happening, new friends and possibly a tangible amount of new expectations.
I think these few days should be survivable enough. Getting my pink Holga later
in the day and hopefully I can get my money and get that bloody hat I've been aiming.
And then school's gonna reopen and I'm so looking forward to Monday because of the
opening of Reflections, not that I'm so pro school activities,more because my two
friends are performing! In addition to that, I can start focusing on my own
personal project and be happy and waste more money (I still need a fucking job!).
Of course, not forgetting the one issue that's still hanging, except for the fact
that it's hanging on a thread now because of the way things are turning lately.
Not that I'm minding of course (:

So, I should be done for now, dead tired. Just got home from a long ass day,
surprising Haiqal and then a trip to my grandparents' house. Bye, bitches.

Oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!
and I just realised that I might be related to someone I'm not really fond of. FUCK.

2008-10-30T20:10:00.007+08:00

Let me explain to you about myself, since, well, I give off that certain impression.
Which is not good in my honest opinion because it leads to misconceptions that
at times I think, are unfair to my side. Yeah, okay, people judge and from passing
judgments, somethings that people assume to be aren't always real, which sucks.
But, so you see, who am I exactly? I'm spiderman. Okay, no shit, that wasn't funny.
Back to the topic here, naturally, I love and in fact enjoy the company of others.
The other day some journalist interviewed me and asked me what I thought of the
word "Loveless" and my answer to her was that the word doesn't exist. I mean, come
on, look at it this way, you'd be lying if you said it does. Which doesn't make
sense to me coz whether you're aware of it or not, there's at least one person in
this bullshit of a world who actually cares for you. That's why I love being with
my friends and family. And so here I am sidetracking like fuck. Okay next,we have
a list coz I swear to god I have no freaking clue how to make this sensible enough.

Fact 1 : I'm a naturally loud person.
Fact 2 : When I say that I'm nice I mean it.
Fact 3 : But that doesn't mean I always LOOK it.
Fact 4 : Because sometimes, with certain people, you have to be wary.
Fact 5 : I can also be totally mean.
Fact 6 : But ONLY towards people who have irked me, subconscious or not.
Fact 7 : I am pretty laid back, come on, why be so uptight all the time?
Fact 8 : I cover up my emotions pretty well. Hence, being happy 80 % of the time.
Fact 9 : I'm a normal human being. I don't eat people, that would be cannibalism.
Fact 10 : I love new friends! But don't be as pushy as the gundu from my Theatre class.

And now, a random shot from my Vivitar!

2008-10-28T00:10:00.007+08:00

I WANT A TRASHY ROCKSTAR BOYFRIEND.

Who'd probably end up killing me or himself over drugs.
But oh well who cares.It's called fantasyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

2008-10-27T01:51:00.008+08:00

Apparently a few of my friends think that whenever I say the word "Fuck!"
it's funny as hell due to the fact that somehow saying the word doesn't suit
my facial expression and my body frame (lol wut?!) . Thing is, I don't get
how a word needs to be suited to a person in order for it to sound right.
Anyways, doesn't matter. It's not as if I mind. I'm used to people laughing
at me. Which is never annoying unless I'm having my period. Hahahaha.

Went out to some flea market shit the other day and collected my baby Holga
and got Ikhlas his 135. Now he's complaining on his pm that he's broke. But
never mind, I'm getting my pink 120 and then when school reopens, we can
shove it in people's faces just to annoy them...not that we're not annoying already.
And I'm still contemplating if I should sell my baby Holga and buy a jelly cam instead.
I just bought it and now I want to sell it. Indecisiveness is a little retarded, I think.

So, reason having this majorly redundant blog post (which may not be redundant in
the end) is because I have to like distract myself from non stop thinking which is not
beneficiary to my own cause. This is why I cannot be alone. Once I'm alone, everything
stops with the exception of my brain (I'm not being literal fyi) and once it starts
thinking, I'm gone. Like how I tell people I'm stoning when I'm actually not because my
definition of stoning is to think alot about things whereas we have normal beings not doing anything when they're stoning. Am I making sense? Hopefully yes. And I noticed
that this post has alot of brackets. Joy to bracketing. Am I done yet? Think so.

2008-10-26T02:20:00.001+08:00

Piglet was a pink bear.
Okay, he's amused.

2008-10-24T01:11:00.007+08:00

I was supposed to be a crazy yakuza somewhat. Hah, fail.

I need to talk to this one person right now and ask the person to sit down.
And then I will tell the person that she's doing a good job so far and that being
like this is the best way out. She deserves better and she shouldn't be sticking to
that one lingering hope that it might just go her way for once. It doesn't happen
and it won't happen. With people like you-know-who at least, it'll get nowhere.
But now that person is regaining everything she's got from the past few months
and is picking up the pieces and promised herself that she won't be brought down
by this one single bad experience. Come on. Everyone knows that she's not at a
loss. It's the other party's loss in fact. But oh well, nothing's fair in this world right?
And having said that, because of the unfairness in it, it is why she is going away from
unnecessary stress she has been putting up with for the past few months. Honestly,
what's the point if it's gonna be her, her , her all the way? Don't regret it, mister.
Because she's stronger than you think. She's been hella strong. Neat isn't it?

I am winning. Almost.

2008-10-21T21:50:00.004+08:00

Halloscream Party ; 17th Oct

Family friends gathering shit ; 18th Oct

CCC + 1 STA guy Raya Outing ; 19th Oct

We don't like Theatre module outing ; 20th Oct

Because my life is better than yours.

2008-10-17T00:55:00.004+08:00

I'm really sorry but I will have to procrastinate again. It seems that I cannot
go about not blogging and it drives me absolutely insane keeping stuff in. Also,
I'd like to apologize if my blog posts have been more negative than positive. I
don't have the freedom to have happy thoughts and say really random things
anymore like I used to because that part of me went on an indefinite hiatus and
won't be coming back soon, pretty much. If I'm normal in front of you, it's actually
made up and not 100% real. I mean, if I don't do this, then I won't even be here.
There is so much a person can take, really. It seems that suddenly almost everyone
I know is having the same type of issues to deal with, noone's happy or slightly
satisfied. So I suppose, I've been seeing faux acts of being normal then these days.

I was pondering about it and well, maybe, I should try dealing with my problems
first rather than putting priority to others. Thing is, I'm so used to helping and
bothering about how others feel, it feels odd to even try to think about not doing
them anymore. I've been told to give myself a decent priority. I would really, if
I knew what exactly I'd be doing. Thing is, I can't even figure that out. So, what's
the point then? I won't be happy. Heck, I haven't been happy for the longest time.

I wonder if you guys do the same as me? Or do you ignore or maybe just a tad bit
of obliviousness is put into play. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't the only one pushing,
it'd be nice if there are more things induced in. Maybe that's why there's vulnerability
when it comes to certain situations or maybe even all. Who would know right? Screw it.

Can you see the upside down smile?

2008-10-14T00:04:00.004+08:00

And so, the fridge fell apart.
Yeah, I know. Only things like this happen to me.
Thank god for the other fridge.
I think I'm gonna laugh now.

2008-10-11T00:58:00.008+08:00

MGG is sexy.

Because I like my guys to be a wee bit sloppy at times,
but have very nice hair and a certain quirky appeal.
Intelligence is hella sexy, be it book-wise or street.
Klutzes are definite yeses. Randoms? Even better.
Laughter, would be the ultimate icing on the cake.

HAHAMYCOUSINWHOISASOLDASMEBUTISAMINAHISGETTINGENGAGEDHAHA

2008-10-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

I edited this post just because I have the sudden urge to blog right this
moment and I don't want to post another post on the same date because lately,
I've been a little OCD about that. Haha, okay, that sentence was pretty long,
try saying it all at one go. Oh god, talk about being random.

Okay so, I think the whole school thing is taking a toll on me. Like I said
before, it's driving me up the wall lately, so much so that I'm sick twice
in a single week. Second time round though, was pure torture. I'm not
dramatizing it or whatever but hell, it was the worst case of high fever.
Thank god I'm okay now, almost back to normal except that I'm eating sick
people food, or at least I try to. Sick people food's really good, btw.

Moving on, just now's meeting got me a little excited for quite abit.
And then Fatal Frame and some spooky school stories came out and suddenly RP
seemed so different. I guess we're back to using Lester's teng-neng-neng term.

And Halloween party thingo in school next week. I'm coming as Fred the Red.
No, not really. But hell, if I see any clowns, prepare for a painful death. The end.

2008-10-07T00:37:00.007+08:00

Fuck it, I'm so drained, I don 't even give a shit anymore. Give a shit about what?
I don't even fucking know. I've yet to redo my overly redone PP. My brain won't work,
I hate, hate, hate the idiot who came up with PP. I wanna curse you but I can't be
bothered anymore. Too tired to even try to do it. Now I have the Reflections thingo
coming up. How swell, last minute on everything and the budget's awfully tight.
I want it to go well and successful but meh, no high expectations, I'm getting ready
to combat intense firing from people who don't even know their shit. Go die all of you.

This is gonna be a testing month, next month as well and probably the one after.
Heck, might even drag to end of the school term which I'm half excited for. I need
that goddamned long ass break to just rot at home. But then again, there's gonna be
an ending to that one thing I've been holding on to for the longest time. For everyone
else, I don't need your pity, I want you to come up to me at the end of the day and tell
me, "At least it was a fun experience". It is so far, I suppose. I'm not expecting
anything good. But yeah, I'll look back and think about it and laugh at how stupid I am.
For now, I'll deal with the "yesnomaybeidontknow". Coz it's better to feel than none.

Loliloliloli.

Eh guys, when are we gonna watch back breaking action again?
Oh and I bumped into Jon earlier! Bloo and deo!!

2008-10-06T00:23:00.004+08:00

My thoughts you can't decode.
How did we get here?

2008-10-03T00:10:00.007+08:00

- I am so fokken happy, for no specific reason.

- Raya was fine. I didn't get to see annoying faces.

- I got my Bloo. He is NOT a dildo.

- I am not threatened by that advisor of mine. Go die.

- New friends are always awesome.

- I like rainy days. Do you?

- Nerds are well cute. I don't like cool people.

- Soccer/football is the most popular sport in the world!

- Lets go to Old Trafford next March!

- I miss certain moments. I want them back.

2008-09-29T17:59:00.005+08:00

When will people stop thinking too much?

Just because this. Just because that.

There are certain things I can't allow.

There are certain things I can allow.

So now,I'm thinking, so what? There's no difference is there?

But for the sake of it, for the sake of my paranoia it'll stay this way.

There's no changing it. I won't change it. Unless the big slip up occurs.

On an entirely different note, I'll be waiting excitedly for my two new babies these
few weeks. Then, by the end of next month, I should have my third one already. :D

2008-09-27T18:30:00.003+08:00

I just don't get the idea of spring cleaning just so that the house will be
clean enough to impress a bunch of people who don't even give a shit about
you year round except for when it comes to Raya. Even so, it's like one whole
big competition, show off expensive clothes that you'll barely wear in your
everyday life, jingle those disgusting gold chains and bracelets and the ugly
ass cakey make up. And then the whole comparing kids thing start. I find this
last bit rather entertaining, you know. Just because most people would go,
"RP? Oh really?" and then they raise their ugly ass drawn eyebrows and give
this bewildered look. My mom is awesome at countering these kind of people
though, so does my dad. Look at it this way, I least I don't go around wasting my
life around like your kids. I least I don't look like a skank whore. At least my English
is good enough. FuCkZxZxZ eUuU aH, mY LyF iShHh BeTtEr tHaN uRzXzXz. Hah.

L,N,W. My glasses broke that day.

2008-09-26T01:16:00.006+08:00

I was looking though profiles, pictures and blogs.
What the hell happened to the people I once knew? They all died.
They're all now so full of themselves, they think they're cool, with their
awesomely fucked life, they're going nowhere, people with no moral values.
I hope you all fail because I've almost lost all respect for you people. Almost.
I'm ashamed to say that I know you, because I actually don't. Honestly, have you
people even thought about how your future will be like? I look at you guys now and
I see nothing fruitful nor successful. Just one big hell hole. You'll regret who you are
now, you'll regret the things you did, you'll regret 85 % of the decisions you've made.
Yes, you can say that I'm no better. I agree, I'm not perfect, never will be.
But I do know my limits. I don't make the best decisions but I do know that they're
just right for me, right for the moment. Mistakes I did, will become lessons, good ones.
Because I know how to take them in and accept them. You guys won't be able to.

Who says this post is about my friends? Who says this post is about people whom I don't
really know? I love judging. But don't you guys LOVE it even more? So why can't I? Bitch.

Yeah, I contradict alot. So what. But I care, that's why this post exists, dumb fucks.
I'm ranting because I'm semi blind, I'm running a temperature and humans are buggers.

2008-09-24T01:17:00.006+08:00

I have this one friend. This one friend, is very random.

Exhibit A, B, C, D :

lester doesnt put his name as his msn nick. says:
come on.
lester doesnt put his name as his msn nick. says:
you have to fight for it.
lester doesnt put his name as his msn nick. says:
fight for your love.
lester doesnt put his name as his msn nick. says:
fight for your hair.

Lester, congratulations. You've made it to my list of LOLs.

2008-09-23T00:48:00.009+08:00

There's this one thing about me that really pisses me off. It's not my quick
temper nor my low level of tolerance for some people, it's my clumsiness,
my inability to handle things with care. Somehow, when I open my bag to take
out my laptop, I found pink glitter everywhere. From the bottom of my laptop
to the base of the bag. That's not the worst part. The worst part was when I was
cleaning the shitload of mess, I managed to become pink glitter girl and I had glitter
everywhere. I was practically glowing with princessy aura with all the glitter on me.
I got so pissed I wanted to cry, but thank god I managed to refrain myself from
doing that. Instead, I thought about the other instances that have made me felt the same way. There were way too many. At the age of 10 I decided that climbing a fence with my male cousin was thrilling. Thrilling till blood spewed from my chin and I went berserk thinking about the stitches I had to face. Luckily, there was this magic healing powder shit that the doctor offered as an alternative and things went back to normal soon after. Of course, I have an ugly scar to remind myself of it. Trust me, things were way worse when I was much younger. At 6, I got my head stuck in between the thin poles of the kitchen chair. Pretty much became chair girl for 3 hours before the oil finally agreed to help and I got out. And yes, a red neck. Hahaha. Shut up. My life is retarded enough, right? But I must say, way more funny. Kidding. Goodnight, bitches.

2008-09-21T14:52:00.010+08:00

Pillars of hardcore support

I know. They know. They've been supportive. Been pushy.
You know. They know, I think. What have you done? Nothing.
Or is this a simple case of obliviousness? Who knows? I don't.
What's this? Mass confusion? My fault and yes, yours. It's fair.
Wait, no. Not really. I've been fair to you. Stop being bi polar.
Cause you're hot then you're cold. You're yes then you're no.

2008-09-18T23:42:00.007+08:00

Darth Katflight says:
im a sith
おれさま says:
and why so?
Darth Katflight says:
theory is if i was a sith
Darth Katflight says:
Id live in a room with my cats, grooming them
Darth Katflight says:
if someone disturbs me, id use the force to throw my cats at them
Darth Katflight says:
and thus
Darth Katflight says:
katflight
Darth Katflight says:
LORD KATFLIGHT
おれさま says:
omg i just loled
おれさま says:
the things you think about when you're with your kitties
Darth Katflight says:
but either ways ila.. the worst has happened
Darth Katflight says:
I..
Darth Katflight says:
I...
Darth Katflight says:
turned into a star wars fan
Darth Katflight says:
oh and im buying a lightsaber
Darth Katflight says:
90 bucks lol
Darth Katflight says:
and we're dressing as stormtroopers on halloween

And Star Wars took in Kevin as well.

2008-09-17T00:17:00.007+08:00

Omg. McDonald's gonna have Bloo figurines as part of their Happy Meal toys.
I'm planning to buy alot of Happy Meals this month. I love Bloo. I wanna marry Bloo.
And yes, I'm very much aware that he looks like a dildo. The joke was old. Shut up.
Speaking of dildos, my bunny hat have been said to look like a dildo if I were to stuff
my ears with chopsticks or cotton. No way in hell I'm stuffing anything in them. Heh.

So yeah, moving on..remember what I said about expecting more drama? Well, it keeps
getting better and better. I was so close to reaching my ultimate goal but I wasn't
given the chance to but yeah, I can't help but feel so accomplished. Double agent,
better do your job as well ah. Don't fall in love with CP, else, it'll get more dramatic.

The motivational poster collection just got bigger. How fun.

2008-09-15T01:29:00.006+08:00

JCIG camp was fun. Thanks to Nao, Marcus and Shiz, I think I managed to shed
some kilos due to excessive laughing. TRCC is a sexy place to sleep in. Not that I
got any proper sleep anyways. Shameless karaoke singing for me and some hentai
watching for others, night time was the best, especially when I got my funny mood
swings and scared the others. Day time was good as well, treasure hunt was funny
because Alvin made himself invisible and everyone got lost looking for him. Nice
week overall. School is getting less shittier, almost everything is falling into place.
Now I shall wait for the only missing piece a little longer. I can't always be pushy,
can I? Oh yes, to clarify your questions, I did cut my fringe, it's just not obvious.

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